I didn’t think I would feel this way about pitching Sahar & the Seven Dudes Doc & the Seven to agents. I thought I’d feel excited about it. But I don’t.
I thought I could send out two queries a day, five days a week, but it turns out I can’t. And it’s only been two weeks.
Querying agents makes me anxious while I’m doing it and I feel depressed after I do it.
It feels like casting my line out to a sea of fish, but I have no idea if the fish even eat the bait I’m using.
It’s hard to send my queries out there and get no response back. And for some, I’ll never get a response back. As in, some agents say on their sites that if they don’t respond within 6-8-10 weeks, that means it’s a “no.”
So far, I’ve emailed out 15 queries in two weeks and I’ve received two rejections. Each rejection feels like a clump of soil thrown on my grave. Sorry to be dramatic, but it doesn’t feel good.
The advice out there is you shouldn’t take it personally and you should develop a thick skin. That sounds very practical but I’m going to be honest–getting rejections sucks. It sucks when I’ve worked on my novel for 31 months and I want good news at the end of all my hard work. Who wouldn’t? So, diving into the query trenches and getting mud thrown into my face every week with no good news, man, it’s painful.
I’ve thought it over and I’ve decided to query just two days a week from here on out. I think I need to do this for my own mental health and self-care. I can keep doing this if I know it’s just twice a week.
I’ll post every few weeks and let you know how it’s going. In the meantime, if you have a minute, please send some good luck thoughts my way. Thank you.